This Is My Love Song For You
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This Is My Love Song For You

Are you ready for your birthday letter? Dear Alex, The love of my life. Time flies. It has been 20 years
since we started writing birthday letters to each other. This 20th birthday letter is my love song to you. My life was a mess before I met you. I was going through a nasty divorce and I had just started my business. Things were tough financially and emotionally for me. Obviously, I don’t know what I wanted and where I was heading. My chanced meeting with you was the best thing that ever happened to me. Many people would have steered clear of this potential disaster and heartbreak. But somehow, you did not. I was confused but I was also needy. I have not come to terms with many things in my life. I remembered those days when you had to stay with me in a small rented room when you can have all the comforts in life at home. But you said comfort is where I am and when you are with me. I remembered working endless hours during the start of my business with very little time for you and you have to put up with my many mood swings and tantrums. You said you understand what I am going through and that you will always be there for me. Every time when I am out with you and when we would meet some of my friends, you would quietly make yourself scarce. You said you don’t want to put me in any awkward position of having to introduce you to my friends. We built this beautiful home together, but when neighbors and friends asked about our relationship, you would say that we are just friends and that you are renting a room from me. Our home has all your touches but you have selflessly and carefully hide it so that my sexuality won’t be in question. You said it is enough that we know the truth. I know you have never wanted more than just being with me. You said that as long as we are together, nothing else matters. It’s been a tough life for us not being able to love openly like many others. I wish I had the courage to do it differently. But now… It’s been three weeks since you left this world. This is the rain that wouldn’t stop. This is the winter that wouldn’t thaw. If it is possible to love after one has gone, I hope you know that my love for you is for all eternity. Till we meet again my love. Happy Birthday. I miss you so much. So much. I love you…

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